In Hedley's Words

the show must go

And my show will go on with or without you. We will all realize this sooner or later in our lives. For all those that sincerely believe life can't possibly go on and that you won't survive without a certain individual, if something doesn't work out or if you don't pass that calculus test, well you'll learn that life goes on. You will reflect with hindsight that almost not making it made you a stronger person. Maybe you'll laugh at your innocence. Maybe you'll giggle at your fears. Maybe you'll roll your eyes for thinking that was it. But at that moment in time that was truly what you believed given the circumstances. Just like how if someone tells you, "________ forever," at that moment they probably believed it could be, would be and should be forever...but we don't have control of something that hasn't happened yet. So when one day "forever" ends, your show will go on and in time you'll realize you can't really hold them to their promises of forever. Habits are hard to establish and even harder to keep (at least for me), as you should have noticed if you've been keeping up with my blogs. Things change, and though I could probably (if I wanted) hold onto my promises of forever it'll be under different circumstances. I've paid for my tuition and learned my lesson(s). I now see forever in a more light-hearted sense with an undefined, but existing time limit. I guess I try to refrain from making promises that would extend into the future; where anything can happen. So if I promise to make the next business club fundraiser a success (depending on your knowledge and trust in my character) you will probably believe me, as I guess you should. If I however accidentally slip out: "I will owe you forever," I would advise you to maybe think twice before settling down with comfort from such a statement. Mind you, its not that I don't believe in forever (necessarily) or doubt that I could hold onto a promise forever, but you know- odds are against it. I will promise to forever be your best friend, and admire and cherish you - just I won't necessarily be the one that's always by your side.

No, az is not going through a life crisis. She has just been listening to the song Perfect by Hedley. She thinks its a really beautiful and catchy song. Roughly half (well now its) an hour ago she decided to youtube the song and start singing to it. Singing required her to read the lyrics and she realized that she's doesn't agree with the lyrics...and that they are actually somewhat foolish, but that's just her opinion. It's still an awesome song to listen to and to sing though!

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Excerpt of az's commentary to the song:

"I just know we can't be over, I can see it in your eyes."
well it is over, and there's nothing left in their eyes

"I'm not perfect, but I keep trying
' cause that's what I said I would do from the start.

I am not alive if I'm lonely
so please don't leave me."
can't you just guess what I'm going to say? Here goes: striving for perfection causes more harm than any success it would likely bring- cause perfection doesn't exist honey. I really don't think you can keep your words from "the start" (reference above please). You may be lonely, but you're breathing my friend- and that's soemthing to be thankful for..and really in time you'll learn to be thankful that they left you too because sometimes good things leave so better things can replace it. Yeah, yeah, I'm not appreciating the artistic feelings from the song, but you know what I'm saying is true....

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And my show will go on with or without you. whether I leave for university or not, whether I finish school or not, whether I'm pretty or fat, healthy or sick, rich or poor, with supportive family or not, with friends or in solitude. (I thought these last phrases might be too much...I'm really not that emotional right now...) Whether life is a constant battle or a stroll through the park, life goes on.

p.s. I know you'll never see this but: life's better when you stay out of it, so stay out of it & it's so funny... cause you KNOW word will come back 'round to me.