Lists

attempt to keep my life in order.

A couple of years ago I started a habit of making lists. For the most part lists became necessary to organize my weekends. I have a bad habit of pushing assignments to the end of week so that I can complete most things from the last week and complete as much as I can that's due in the next week all in that one weekend. I love the feeling of triumph when I am able to cross off every last item from my long lists. Ususally that's not the case. I put everything down that I should do, but I guess I really don't expect to accomplish it all. Recently lists have become very useless. I NEVER finish everything. I can barely cross off one or two items, partly because I'm procrastinating way too much and partly because each assignment/item requires atleast 5 hours or so to finish...There's "less" assignments so I don't need to make lists to remind myself..but dreading to set aside 5+ hours just make me procrastinate more!

I just made a SUPER LONG AND DETAILED lists of things to accomplish this weekend...and I think I NEED to and WILL cross off everything. Completing this weekend to do list will recreate some self-confidence in myself that I CAN focus and do all this studying..and that I DO have the determination to be able to be productive again.