My first

long night.

I've been in Queen's for almost two weeks and I think this is the first night where I can't sleep. Provided, I've taken naps all week...maybe I'm not tired. Right now I'm in the common room with a couple of people. I was rotting in my room. I didn't want to work, but I didn't want to sleep either. So I can't tell if this feeling is caused by procrastinating, a bad diet, lazy, tired or maybe it's a feel of homesickness. Or maybe it's caused by wl. Yes, Mr. wl I know you'll read this. It's not that there's anything wrong... it's more like everything is too good. Like I said, I wish we would get to see each other already, so then I can get over missing you and get on with my life. Jeez. #$^#*$% I'm actually very frustrated right now. What's wrong with me?!

Anyways, it's past 12am now so technically I can blog my next post. I've put some thought into this.

Day 6: A moment you would like to relive.

When I first read this topic I thought it was kind of interesting. I never really thought about reliving life. It kind of just goes by right? So my first thought might have been the day I got my letter for my scholarship. That was definitely one of my most important/life changing days in my life...but I realized I don't know if I want to relive it. It was a combination of joy, tears, and of course disbelief. Then I thought of memories with my friends. I'm in no way suggesting that they weren't amazing, but I don't feel an urgent need to relive those moments. I'm sure even better ones will be created the next time we hang out. Next I had a wild idea that maybe it'll be cool to relive all those chaotic academic days, those days where we stressed about math tests and all nighters finishing assignments. It's not like I want to go through that again, but in hindsight it's kind of interesting. It'll give us a chance to maybe do it differently. Maybe we'll know not to stress out about it so much. So finally, even though I tried to avoid it in the end I can't help but deny that the moments I want to relive are those spent with that special individual. Especially in light of my emotional state of being lost right now, I really want to relive those times right at the beginning of the summer where we would hang out, watch Mysteries of Love and cook in your kitchen. Or how about that time we had instant noodle at the seven eleven. Or let's not forget lying on the beach looking at what we thought was a shooting star...but was probably a satellite. Or when we were on the ferry on the way back, and the detour to the other island was wonderful because it let us have more time on the ferry. Yep, if I can go back right now I would want to go back to that ferry with my hair blowing in the wind as you hold me in your arms.

There, I said it. And since I just announced my blog to these dudes in front of me they'll probably think I'm a softee after reading this. Sorry guys, I just don't know what's wrong with me.

This kind of feeling might lead to reckless behaviour... remember that issue I have with wanting to do reckless things every now and again? I'll keep you posted.