So many of my dearest are taking night school. This leaves me alone every Tuesday and Thursday from 6:30PM to 9:30PM. For those three hours they are learning calculus, biology, international business, advanced functions, etc... at an incredible rate. They are probably all drained from a day of school already. Some of them don't even go home. They stick around and wait till evening class starts. Some of them are likely starving. jk today had a small container of chips for dinner! They probably all have a pile of homework from day school waiting for them when they get home at like 10PM. I KNOW some of them barely slept the night before and will not likely go to sleep anytime soon tonight either. I really don't know how they do it, and for some people I don't even understand WHY they're taking it, but they are.
I too, contemplated enrolling in night school, but realized that with my schedule (and in particular, commitment to Super Council) I would not be able to survive it. Being a witness to all my friends not only stress over the regular school work, but also worry about (and skip school for) their night school presentations, tests, midterms I sincerely commend them on being able to still being standing (figuratively). They might have huge panda eyes and chugging those cups of coffee, but they're surviving! I know I made the right decision to not bother with night school.
Similarly, I knew quitting JA was the right decision for me. With the hindsight I still believe this is true. Though I could be the shareholder to a JA Company that is giving out a $65 dividend, I know my last couple of weeks and months have been hectic enough.
Though it may seem impossible now, I'm sure all (well, actually most) of us will pull our acts together and graduate (somehow). To all you night school students, you may be dreading everything single Tuesday and Thursday night, but before you know it it'll be June and it'll all be over and ta-da! a credit will be yours to claim. So it's not a complete waste of time, effort, sleep, coffee money... (ha! yes I apologize for poking fun).
When you guys are all gone (at night school), I feel so alone sometimes. I've mentioned it before, but if I wanted someone to say call someone, I know I can't because you guys are all at night school. Thus, every Tuesdays and Thursday evening have been pretty much a complete waste of time for me. I end up sitting around, watching TV, browsing the internet, mopping ,doing everything and anything BUT homework or anything I could be half proud of. I did not go to the gym, read a book, study for my G1. Nada. Tonight was a prime example. I've been home for 6 hours now and I've accomplished nothing and I still have no motivation to work (though I have a bucket load of work to do). This makes me think, "Maybe I should have signed up for night school after all."
As I was moping this evening I thought, "Night school time should be a time to take advantage of to do something that I won't normally get to do/have the time to do. It can be the opportunity to try something new, do something different, and meet and connect with someone new - somebody that is not (yet) one of my closest and does not go to night school. I should and could turn the situation around, and make something good out of it." I still like this idea, but today all I did was think about taking action, I didn't actually go take action. I don't have enough discipline, not enough discipline to do the right thing and bounce off my lazy backside.
When you guys are all gone (at night school), I feel so alone sometimes. I've mentioned it before, but if I wanted someone to say call someone, I know I can't because you guys are all at night school. Thus, every Tuesdays and Thursday evening have been pretty much a complete waste of time for me. I end up sitting around, watching TV, browsing the internet, mopping ,doing everything and anything BUT homework or anything I could be half proud of. I did not go to the gym, read a book, study for my G1. Nada. Tonight was a prime example. I've been home for 6 hours now and I've accomplished nothing and I still have no motivation to work (though I have a bucket load of work to do). This makes me think, "Maybe I should have signed up for night school after all."
As I was moping this evening I thought, "Night school time should be a time to take advantage of to do something that I won't normally get to do/have the time to do. It can be the opportunity to try something new, do something different, and meet and connect with someone new - somebody that is not (yet) one of my closest and does not go to night school. I should and could turn the situation around, and make something good out of it." I still like this idea, but today all I did was think about taking action, I didn't actually go take action. I don't have enough discipline, not enough discipline to do the right thing and bounce off my lazy backside.
I've realized that I'm either in super productive mode or "going-to-accomplish-nothing" mode. I love it when I'm in productive mood. I shall go give productive mood another attempt now...
p.s. Have you noticed the inconsistency both in writing? Not only in the way I wrote, but also the "types" of entries I've been submitting? I created this blog to improve my writing and without realizing it I was writing as though I was casually instant messaging a close friend. Another friend also started a blog to improve his writing and he has been consistent with the frequency, content and writing style of this blogs. He's good with habits... This has motivated me to return to the semi-formal... well at least half proper writing.
p.s. Have you noticed the inconsistency both in writing? Not only in the way I wrote, but also the "types" of entries I've been submitting? I created this blog to improve my writing and without realizing it I was writing as though I was casually instant messaging a close friend. Another friend also started a blog to improve his writing and he has been consistent with the frequency, content and writing style of this blogs. He's good with habits... This has motivated me to return to the semi-formal... well at least half proper writing.
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