Midterms were over last week! Since last Thursday I have not accomplished anything academically. So much for vowing to stay ontop of readings and stuff from now on because the midterm cramming was not pretty... I'm so behind. I just read my previous blog post and I laughed a little. Without realizing it, I did not look at my blog until after midterms.. but ironically I'm back on the blog because I am procrastinating once again.
Two days ago I got sick. I laid in bed and watched 8 straight episodes of TVB! My love, TVB! I was right to avoid dramas at all cost.. cause once you start you CANNOT stop! I've been so tempted to start watching again... but I know that if I start I won't be able to stop until another 8 episodes.
The procrastination these last few days have been horrid! I've spent hours on facebook, browsing the internet, doing nothing...
In two hours I am leaving for the QBET conference for the weekend. I have a 15% COMM103 report to write for Wednesday... I'm so screwed!
On another note, back to my heading today...
Sometimes I feel like I'm my own personal psychiatrist who's trying to figure myself out- but fails. I find myself analyzing my own actions, thoughts, behaviors and try to trace back to the cause and reasons for why what I do what I do. Some are more obvious, more reasonable, more believable...others maybe a bit of a stretch of my vivid overly active imagination.
You always hear the phrase, theres someone out there that understands you better than yourself. Do you think that's true? I do and don't at the same time. Other people that observe you may be able to make conclusions more objectively... but I don't think theres one individual (at least for me) that has been with me through all the various stages of my life.. from childhood life shaping experiences to today. Of course, there are individuals who I can tell almost everything to. I once had a theory that it's good to not be afraid to share everything with at least one other person. I'm not saying- speak all your secrets to one person, but theres probably certain people that you just like conversing with for certain topics.
Do you still follow what I'm trying to say? Cause I don't think I do. I think after this whole big circle I need to conclude with: the more I think I understand, the more I want to deny.. but can you really deny understanding? Can you really deny the truth? Can you really deny your past?
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